I guess I just haven't felt like it. Because really there isn't much to right.

I'm talking to a school friend on msn at the moment, and he's trying to help me with physics, but we are both fairly clueless. Me a lot more than him.

He keeps saying things and giving me the winking face. Which I don't quite understand, because they aren't things that correspond with a wink. I'm getting confused - not just about the physics.

The afore mentioned bastard also sent me a second apologetic email, and messaged me today first apologising and then just rambling. I didn't message him back though, I can't be bothered. I'll let him suffer a little longer.

I actually came on here to print out some german stuff to use in my SAC tomorrow, but I've ended up doing everything but.

I've got to organise an outfit to wear to this party tomorrow night. And the decision wouldn't be so damn hard if it wasn't going to be like freezing cold. I don't have any wintery clothes yet, because it's not winter! It's still summer hahah. Summer. Yeh right.

I'm also a little scared for some reason. I think it's just because I'm in such a weird friend situation at the moment, and I'm going to Kate's straight after school tomorrow and staying the night [somewhere] and getting picked up for work the next morning. That's all cool. But then they [Kate and Ang] don't really want Patti staying the night, but they don't know how to tell her, and she thinks she is, and yada yada. It's just all complicated and retarded and I wish i wans't a part of it. I hate being in the middle.

And I've already avoided telling Patti about me going straight over there tomorrow after school, so now when I tell her tomorrow, she'll be all suspicious, or weird about it. I dunno, it'll just be weird and awkward, and I hate these positions. But it's just so damn hard trying to keep friends and good with everyone, without hurting anyone. *sigh*

Oh well I should get some sleep, physics is taking over my brain. Argh.

Yoga was good today, I just can't do some moves, i feel really retarded most of the time, and embarassed, but ohwell. Oh no, actualy most of all I feel fat, because we're bending and everything and my stomach is getting all compressed and turning into rolls lol. Like there are no rolls if I'm just standing or sitting, but if I have to like do some move, then they come, and gah it makes me feel really disgusting for some reason. Yes I know you want to know this. I wish I wans't becoming so.....hmm.....self conscious even about this diary. I monitor myself too much. It's not a good thing.

So yeh, i was going.