Ok ok, so really all that's happened is that I found another tv show to obsess over....Gilmore Girls. It's just that tv shows have this overwhelming power, to make me think that everything in life can work out, that I can have a boy friend, that I can do this, that I can do that. I dunno, it just makes me happy, and even if that only lasts for a short while, it was worth it.

So probably sounding unbelievably sad right now, sad as in pathetic, but you know, it's good to have things to look forward to because you know they bring happiness.

It's kind of like this I guess. I can't start a day properly without getting to go on here, knowing that I will most probably have a note or some guestbook signage. It's nice to know that people care, and it's good that I can spread that vibe around, by reading other diaries and leaving them messages.

And in other news, I made up with a certain someone I was very upset about, look here"All I Wanted Was A Friend". It took a little courage, but I'm glad I messaged her, because I think it's made us both realise how much we really need each other, just to have someone to chat with, or go to for help and advice etc.

I haven't done any homework though, and that has been the main downfall of my day. I really really really really need to do some homework. So I must make myself finish at least my chemistry by tonight. No buts, i've just got to actually do it. That's what this whole year has to be about, no procrastinating, just do it.

I wish I could make my life like that. Actually do all the things I dream about. Karate, break dancing, yoga, guitar lessons. If I was more courageous I would be doing all these types of things. I might have a boyfriend too. I think that's why I always like tv shows, because there is always a couple, and I just wish that was me. Getting to kiss, cuddle and hang out with a great guy.

I'll keep dreaming...