You don't understand how long I have been good for. I haven't cried in so long. I can't even remember when I did last. And when I did it was probably about nothing. They were probably just tears of exhaustion.

But now. Now nothing is really different, I'm just stressed and scared.

I just want to lie in bed and be hugged and told that everything is going to be alright. But of course that's never going to happen. I've been here before, I've wished for all this before. Nothing changes. I don't change. My world doesn't.

Sometimes it seems like it does, but it's really all the same old. I just wished things really changed.

I want Max to come online, but I know he's not going to. He only ever comes on at like 11:30 at night ,and it's only 10. I really want to chat to him. I could ring him, but I do'nt feel like talking.

I don't have the energy.

People messaged and rang me today, but still it felt empty. Lee rang me before and I was nothing. I think he could tell something was wrong. I guess it is the failing among everything else.

( Tuesday, Jun. 10, 2003 + 4:34 pm )
The end.

I failed my anatomy prac exam.