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| ( Saturday, Mar. 01, 2003 + 8:44 am ) Just goes to show. As much as I might obsess about relationships and my lack of them. I can't help wondering if the reason I've never been in one, is because I just wouldn't be very good at it. Often, the thought of one actually scares me. All that time, all that commitment. For me, the constant questioning of why that person would actually want to be with me, yada yada. Maybe I just wouldn't be able to make it work. I'd be too needy, or posessive, or clingy, or maybe not enough. I'm probably just not ready. Just like everything else. Like in year 8 when I had my first "boyfriend" and he told my friend that he wanted to kiss me, so I broke up with him the next day. That's probably why I didn't get my first kiss until I was 17. Because I broke that poor boys heart all that time ago......and apparently he's still very interested in me.
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