You know you want to. [Courtesey of her]

( Wednesday, Feb. 05, 2003 + 6:02 pm )
Hope.less.ness.

I don't really like writing in here for some reason. I don't know why. I write in livejournal. Sometimes. I post pictures in there because they seem more entertaining.

Today I am sad and lonely and bored and crazy. I waited for so long to go out and then I had no one to go out with.

Someone was supposed to come visit me, so I waited and waited for that, but they took ages. And finally when they did arrive I was over it, and I coudln't care less and they only stayed for like 15 mins anyway.

It didn't matter that I had plans in my head because I didn't voice them.

I hope they realised I was down, because I certainly felt it. I just couldn't be bothered, with them or anyone.

And I've been eating way too much. Out of boredom and stress and anxiety and yeah just everything emotional. I might have to start being an emotional non eater and starve myself to boredom. Because eating is just so wrong.

I have these symptoms:
Overeating - carbohydrate craving leading to overweight
Depression - despair, misery, guilt, anxiety, normal tasks become frustratingly difficult, hopelessness

The end.