How am I supposed to mourn someone I've never even met. That's the point.

You are not allowed to die until I have at least met you. Seen you. Been with you. Talked to you. Laughed with and at you.

Get me?

Good.

I'm sorry to hear about those people.

( Friday, Jan. 31, 2003 + 10:43 am )
66 Promises

Exercise can aid in the removal of bad vibes. It can also make you feel like you're going to faint, and make you realise how unfit you are.

When I was laying next to him on the bed, I put my hand over his heart and it was beating faster than mine.

When we were laying next to each other on the bed, edging closer and closer, a couple started kissing on the tv and I just wanted to laugh out loud.

There was a lot of energy between us. Electricity maybe.

It all started after that clip.

( Friday, Jan. 31, 2003 + 9:43 am )
Gah!

I'm feeling this huge emptiness and I don't know what to do.

I can't sleep in because I think I should get up and do stuff and make the most of the time I have before uni starts.

I'm not eating well because i'm eating out of boredom etc.

I haven't taken my medicine properly in longer than I can remember, even though my last appointment was like 3 months ago, and I have to go back in a week.

I feel anxious. I'm anxious about uni right this instand and orientation day isn't until the 20th. Pretty much three weeks away.

I cannot relax.